SILENCE*

Wordpress?

2009-08-14T21:07:00.003+08:00

Have transferred to wordpress. Relink thank you!

http://www.omgshespmsing.wordpress.com/

The ugly side of human nature.

2009-08-14T11:06:00.001+08:00

I break through another long journey trying to get everything working. But again, I failed. It’s seriously weird that human don’t appreciate what they have, and are always seeking for more. It’s perhaps what we are very good at.

Stop
Yo, let me show you something
Girls, you ready? aha
Let's go
4 M-I-N-U-T-E
4 M-I-N-U-T-E girl

hot it hot it hot it hot it i-i-i-i-i-i issue

WHAT A SCAM!

2009-08-13T23:24:00.001+08:00

I opened my junk folder and saw this:

Attention: Sir/Madam.
I wish to notify you again that you were listed as a beneficiary to the total sum of $11,600,000.00USD (Eleven million Six hundred thousand United States Dollars) in the intent of the deceased (name now withheld since this is my second letter to you).

I contacted you because you bear the surname identity and therefore I can present you as the beneficiary to the inheritance since there is no written “will”. My aim is to present you to my Bank Management (Eco International Bank PLC.) as the Next of Kin to our deceased client. I will guide you all through the Claim procedure by providing all relevant Information and guiding you in your decisions and response to the Bank Management. All the papers will be processed after your acceptance.

In your acceptance of this deal, I request that you kindly forward to me your letter of acceptance; your current telephone and fax numbers, age, occupational status and a forwarding address to enable me submit to the Bank Management the details as the Next of Kin to the deceased Account owner.

Yours faithfully,
David Ashang.

Eh David, Rochell is not stupid.

Anyway, I've just polished my teeth today! Thanks to Mdm Soh who was more than willing to spare her time to guide Ain and me. This was the first time handling a patient(Ain) on my own! HAHAHAHA, she was so afraid I'll burn off her gums because the rubber cups kept sliding off her tooth! OMG this can be so fun yet heart-wrecking. Blood makes me go soft, I MUST learn to be cold-blooded in future. Oh yea, haha Nana and Ain that 2 idiots went to school early today thinking that there was Dental Anat lesson. Then put the blame on me, like wtfish! Ain made up a stupid poetry of my name!

There was once a shell, named Rochell, who was from hell.
She called DELL, to try to sell her bell, named gel.
But she fell and dropped into a well,
Then was locked up in the cell and she yelled
HELL HELL HELL!

She was laughing like my Grandmother when she read it to me.

Anyway, met up with MegaRetard just now.. HAHA so long never see her already. She said I look cuter, prettier and thinner. I damn shy de neh. HAHA LOL!

And why do I remind so many people of their friends? TELLL MEE! And I better get this right; no more warnings for me, for resting my elbow on phantoms breast and sun tanning it.

4 more days to sociology and psychology papers. sigh

2009-08-12T15:09:00.003+08:00

I was wondering how bad could it be.
but it turns out pretty fine.

It's good, perhaps.
I really need to concentrate on other matters.

Matters of the heart. It's either :D or :'( huh.

I don't want to :D every minute and :'( for hours.

Anyway last Sunday was Singapore's Birthday LOL, did not watch the actual scene. Jolene went omg. Oh yeah twin went too hahahha sorry I needa mug =X Anyway I feel that the performance was one of the best that I've seen. The local favs and common celebration simply made us united as one and depict our national identity. Songs, dance and everything. Even though the fireworks were only for a moment, it was just so heart-warming. I'm so glad that I'm a Singaporean, who took the pledge lying on the sofa LOL.
So Mon was a holiday, I spend time mugging too! (:

Out to bugis lib to study because some idiots want to lend my book lol.

Made by me, nice right.

Ytd was the damn shit test, head and neck. I screwed it up time and time again, there was retrieval failure. I tried so hard to think of points that I've missed, like constipating for answers to come out from my brain. Its seriously scary because I'm afraid of failure. Once I'm afraid, mind = blank. Esp those important modules, I need to catch those balls.

Chemistry paper today was wtf. I can't do the last section, consisting of 20marks; which is half of the total marks. Like wtffff.. I cant do the first question, can't do the second, third, .... tenth. Ands its all continuous, current-answer-will-help-in-doing-the-next-question kind. I left it almost blank. But draw and scribble hoping for some marks -.- DANG IT!

Ohyeah I got my uniform already. hahha.
Jolene and me.. Joselin dont jealous. lol.

& i love this photo, aarons eye, gr's hand and winnie looks cuter than me here!

2009-08-09T15:33:00.002+08:00

yay! im finally done, just removed that damn potianak pict. HAHAHHAHAHHA

GENIE, nice song... love their dance. Koreans moves are always nice. Or maybe the way they dance makes them look different.

2009-08-07T18:04:00.002+08:00

Yay, 1 paper down!
Microbio wasnt easy.
MCQs tricky like shit!!!!
SAQs :'(
And since when did poly so called SAQs become like O levels EQ?
Damn it?
That so called SAQ worth more than 10 marks. (PER QUESTION)
ARGH...

Yesterday during bio lesson, we had to visit the morgue.. located somewhere in school. Its a place where dead bodies are kept. We saw REAL hands, brains and different section of brains again, sections of hips, including private parts, so damn disgusting. You can see the skin was no longer there, whats left was the muscles, which looked like woods to me -.-! There was a moment when Dr Chua lifted up the cloth, whats beneathe it was a males hip bone. Izah got a huge shock as she was standing right in front of it. HAHAHHA and she shouted "eee PENIS!" and walk aside. Hilarious! Then comes to female body, without the head, arms and thighs. Her top was dissected and what we saw was the stuff inside her body. So messy lor, the intestine all over the place. =/
& it stinks, we had to wash our hands before leaving the room.

OMG IM HUNGRYYYYYYY! k la i go buy food eat!!!

3 more days to head&neck and chem test :(

Save me from this road I'm on...

2009-08-05T22:38:00.003+08:00

IM POSTED TO PARK VIEW PRIMARY FOR CLINICAL ATTACHMENT!
Awwwwwwww....
Anyway I got the uniforms, Mdm Soh is helping me to alter, so can see my sexy body shape. HAHA. =X

These days I've been seeing 11:11. Who miss me so much omg pls tell me im dying to know why i saw 11:11.

Eh did I mention I flunk both my dental anatomy and head & neck practical test?
K nevermind, I flunk them. So cool huh.

I.Need.To.Study.

“Ok, bye”
“Eh say you miss me! Haha”
“I miss you HAHA bye”

Need to stop using the com.

When the world says, “Give up,”
Hope whispers, “Try it one more time.”

When you study, think of me. Makes you wanna study more..

2009-08-04T20:59:00.004+08:00

After I really start studying...
Like only yesterday..
I realised...
O levels are PISAI!

And hey you.
Sorry for not adhering to my promise..
the one I've stated nearly three months back.

Sorry for not being around and doing enough.
Sorry for thinking that the problems lie with you.
Sorry for not seeing what you've done.

Thank you too, for trying to be here for me.

& Dr Shalene gave words of advice today,
which made me wanna think twice about personal stuff.
=D I know what to do already. HAHA HEHE HAHA HO!

Brachiocephalic

2009-08-03T22:33:00.002+08:00

We were studying before head and neck prac.
Me: What is the function of that bra thing? (I used short form for brachiocephalic)
Nana: To support your breast lah?
Me: * =.=! *

Freaking hell. Got me on my knees then come out like 1% of it only. Still got loads of pictures. I just photocopied all of it :'(

ROCHELL STUDY HARD!!!! I failed my H&N prac... terribly =(

2009-08-03T19:19:00.000+08:00

things aint complicating,
things are simple,
things
are
simple.
really.
really?

2009-08-01T03:09:00.002+08:00

This was taken few days ago. My hair just cut short. It'll grow back soon!

Candid.. see! grow liao!

Wahahaha Mdm Soh did procedures without room light! Cause we were doing something we werent suppose to do =/

Damn cool right..

Spit what?

Suck your saliva.

Oh ya, our group got chosen for the best. Prize - Pencil -.-

Guess which is me.

In the toilet. My lesmate JOSELIN!!!!!!

Me and nana ;D

Natural cute.

Someone stalking.

See stalk somemore. Izah hate girls generation. She said I look like them :( KITE comment that I look pretty today (pls? its always?), like secretary.. ready to seduce boss anytime. argh!
Nana: sluts are always pretty
I thought "innocent girls like me are pretty*

Natural cute.

Presenting.

Ains-cant-be-bothered-face

AHEM!

Another group.

Oh ya you know what? I went to SIS today for some church thingy with Mega Retard. Bloody hell, I was so hungry that I got cheated... terribly! I bought this NORMAL SIZED bun with NORMAL TASTING hotdog in it. Guess the price man! I "HUH?!" 3 times.

Me: How much?
CHEAT: $8
Me: huh?
CHEAT: $8
Me: HUH? $8?
CHEAT: yes $8
Me: HUH?! EIGHTTTTT DOLLARS?!
*Pays, since no time to back out -.-*

Play with my feelings. at first i ask for price they ignore =(

Yay finally a photo with her lol! THanks so much for everything leh.
I'll scan the stuff up soon (:

Happy birthday darling x)

2009-07-28T21:41:00.003+08:00

Im drawn with a mask by Ain cause I wore mask few days before. Friends all kiasu, scare I spread virus again, force me wear -.-!

-

I hate it when I end up studying just because everyone else is, so I hope that doesnt happen. Because when that happens, it will just turn me into a jealous, competitive bitch. Which. Sucks.

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHOW LUO! HAHAHAHHA He finally turned 30! Still not old for me.. Cause he look like 25 and acts like 20! Told you, he's young at heart ahha, like me!

2009-07-28T21:27:00.002+08:00

There're so many things I don't want to face, there're things im running away from, there're times I wish I wasnt like this at all but that, you know? There're also things I wish I could change, and there're so many things I want to say to someone :|

I’m scared, frustrated and angry so just **** off unless you can put up with a moody face or you’re going to give me a hug or say something comforting.

oh helllllllllllll.

So lie to me and tell me that it’s gonna be alright.

Sorry Mega.R for scaring you -.-

I love how he sang this song. So touching.

TRUE OR NOT?

2009-07-27T23:37:00.005+08:00

Sia la, I just read her blog again. This time I'm determined to blog it out. Not everything of course, but to show how great her love is for someone! From her blog, I saw how noble love can be! She and this guy(my twin) broke up few months ago. Up till now, she's still waiting for him, hoping he'll change his mind about her one day. Waiting and reminiscing, she'll add on her true thoughts about him after every post, which shows how much she loved him. She wasn't afraid of how people looked at her. Like, "Hey give it up, you're not worth." or "Move on you're being irritating". She still held on tightly.. Which really amazed me.. Cause I guess this is one true love, but its only one-sided :( Now for my greatest wish, is for twin to go back to her. I've argued like so many times with him over this.. zzz the final choice still lies in him. If my partner was like her, I go back already! Still wait what, he rather lose his pride than me!

I mean, come on, who would blog about how much you still misses your ex, or how much you wish you could let go but couldn't, after your partner breaks your heart?

Not much right?

Many would just "So be it, I can find someone better"

I've seen true love. YAY!

FASTEST RAPPER IN KOREA SIAAAAAAA. IDIOT this song is nice!

2009-07-26T21:18:00.001+08:00

lol I brought my sister to the clinic 2 days ago since she wasnt feeling well. In the end, the nurse also wanted to check my temp to see whether am I affected by my sister anot. To HER amazement(I saw her shocked face LOL), I was also having fever, she was stunned when I told her my sis got fever because of me -.-

Then... She made us wear this!

SO QQQQQQQQQQQQ!

Eh tmrrrrr need wake up 5am liaooooooooooo i havennnnnnnnnn doooooooooooo chemmmmmmmmmmmmm! dieeeeeeeeeeeeee lessonnnnnnnnnnn startsssssssssssss attttttttttt 8ammmmmmmmmmmmmm!

my throat issss dying. it WILL heal.

2009-07-24T18:21:00.000+08:00

My lil sister got a fever now.. thanks to my dad! He knew I've had a fever and he still tell my sister to eat my unfinished food! Cause I only ate 1/4 of it. -.-! My sister ate it ytd and woke up with a bad sore throat today =X Hopefully she'll be alright.

Dad: You see la, everytime never finish your food... Now your sister also got fever.
Me: *roll eyes* eh who ask her to eat?

1st Fact about Men - They love to put the blame on others but never on themself.

Anyway I wanna eat alr. HUNGRY!!!! =/

2009-07-23T17:57:00.002+08:00

2 days ago, we were so fine. Now her fever just wont drop, and for mine, would drop and come back countlessly. Bloody hell midnight I jumped out of bed after taking my temp. 39.7... I scare I might go into fits -.- den I quickly take med with boiled water -.- After 2 hours it went down by abit. Then slowly subsided, till 38, thats the lowest it can get :( After like 4 hours, shot up again. Im feeling perfectly fine, except for running nose, when it gets tired it wont run for some time, excessive coughing, just stopped and I want it to stop forever! Sneezing like no ones business... Nana called me just now and I was sneezing into the phone like ..... My eyes damn hot =( Most of them said I spread the virus in class =O so many didnt go to school today... hopefully we will all get well... Exams are coming :'(

OMG NEARLY HALF THE CLASS DOWN :X

2009-07-22T20:49:00.008+08:00

Damn it Im down with URTI :( GR smart ass, he knows what kind of med the doctor gave me and how many types are there. :O Anyway I've got a 2 days mc which means that I dont need go to school tmr!!!

I encounter something very strange these days. I dont know why, but it seems as if whatever i've blogged, whether published or not, WILL come true! Its so freaking scarly :(

Exams are coming, I better be healed...

2009-07-21T22:21:00.001+08:00

Yay I'm finally back! It has been like a day without touching the computer but I feel as if I didnt use it for for a year =/ Anyway yesterday we celebrated Ain and GR birthday! Bought 2 mini slice cake.. In the end, SJ said I had the most fun cause I get to slam creams on diff people face -.- But I got back the most laaaaa! Lol? After that went out to shop for some stuff, called Megaretard she flew to my side within 30mins. I AM SO TOUCHED! LOL! She cannot tahan my wanna-spoil-but-die-die-cannot-spoil bag. So she influence me to see bag.. upon payment, she paid! OMG say earlier ma, I can choose the more ex one what.. =/ jkjk, this bag.. worth much much more than the actual price la.. A bag that money can't buy, cause someone special bought it for me! EEEE so mushy, damnnnnnn I better stop lying man! MEGARETARD I JOKING ONLY! PLEASE I DONT WANT DIE! =XXX

I still love this bagggg =(((

I shall learn to love this more hahahahha

thanks mega.R! :D

today Dr Ali called me during optech lesson :O I got a warning letter :'((((( Damn it i gave him stupid reasons. This means that I DONT KNOW HOW TO LIE AND IM A HONEST PERSON!

anyway took some pics today yeehah!

I still remember in the past when I see these stuff, I freaked out..

while waiting for others to end prac..

actually im having pimple breakout now. kite was asking "you just reach your puberty stage?" My foreheadddd!!!! But its getting better since I've been clipping up my fringe.. LOL!

Anyway damn it i forget what i wanna say. Oh ya I saw this cute video in winnie's blog omg.. the babies can dance. Okay I know its not real, I not stupid. But still... I wanna say, the babies are.... AS CUTE AS ME! ;D

ok bye

2009-07-19T11:16:00.002+08:00

currently am thinking what to replace my slide show.
haksoon WANTED me to use his photo as a replacement.
so till I come up with something, this will remain as it is.
I know many of you might want to puke but please bear with me for a moment or come up with a few suggestions for me =P
thank you all for your understanding.
if you're jealous or anything, tell me. I can put yours up too! =p

*TWIST*

2009-07-19T03:13:00.005+08:00

YO PEEPOS!
I can't sleep so I'm blogging right now

Fri night was a terrible one.
Cab over to cineleisure to find L, D and MS
After then, D2, JH and JS came.
Pooled for awhile, then pubbed.
MS and D later argued over the stupidiest stuff. :'( Initially I thought it would end in 5 mins. But it became worst and I got freaking scared they might blow each other up. I pulled D out of the pub because I was shouting and competing with the bloody music being sang/played. Then the rest followed. I felt useless, I wanted to cry at the point of time, it wasn't because I'm afraid, yes partly it was but why must things end up this way? L was already so drunk and on the other side, I was trying very hard to be up on my feet so that at least D wouldn't feel so bad. She still had to throw this stupid tantrum of hers and I shouted at her several times. So sorry babe. I was kinda glad you told me you don't rmb anything at all =/ Till now I'm feeling very apologetic towards D.

I still dont understand why it had to end this way.
& I lost my voice :'(

2009-07-16T01:09:00.006+08:00

I've been slacking like nobody's business. Rochell, wear your socks up high!!! Don't be lazy.!!

Omg and I just realise that PH lets poly students in for FREE every wed, fri and sats before 11pm! Damn it, Sherwin went and I bet he's enjoying the accompany of hawt girls now. And he was so sweet this morning.. Thought he wouldnt be coming anymore but he called me in the midst of my lesson, to go out of class and redeem my crysanthemum tea. =D Thanksss a zillionnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!! That was unexpected!

I guess this is my last post. Seriously after this, I'll be mugging like no one's business. Studying like FENG PO ZI and scoring As like peanuts.

OMG YOU BELIEVE UH?

seriously you should believe. Cause Imma study and identify tooths abnormalies now! Yes then go to bed =D I really should change :'( Use my free time to study instead of slacking. Damn it, I waste too much time.

I hope time could stop right nowwww. Though theres no interaction, I felt something warm xoxo :'(

okay bye

tell me the seven wonders of the world....

2009-07-14T18:32:00.004+08:00

Damn it finally my lappy is back to normal! Alright I wanna make this fast and quick. Today had a bad bad sore throat when I woke up :(

Optech test, just passed :'( D. I thought I could get B. Yes, I thought... wawawa!
Practical was a killer but I like it. Ruined my first tooth, #47. Bloody hell the phantom mouth so small how to see where the hell am I drilling?! The moment I put the handpiece in, I was already covering the whole tooth. Dr Ali kept saying, use your FEEL, FEEL, FEEL....! I tell you, I use my 'FEEL', drill until got DEEP and WIDE cavity! My cavity prep design on the tooth totally suck cause its as if the whole tooth got eaten away =/ Tho the pattern is there, smooth walls and floor, it is totally unacceptable till I've got to redo it ): I bet if the phantom is alive, she'll definitely scream the hell off her head.Noel make fun by shouting into the cavity and told me there was an echo. Freak, than I redo. Supposedly must pay $3 for a new tooth but since it was Noel who paid for it, I decided NOT to return =D YAYNESS!

Then I realised that after school ends, I was feeling sort of sick. And it was of the same symptoms that arises from H1N1. Only no fever =/ Dear God, if I really have to kena, then let it be after all my exams =/

Alright I wanna sleep!

I GOT A D FOR OPTECH :'(((((((((((((((((

i don't understand

2009-07-13T23:05:00.004+08:00

Im elated to have nice friends around me
Im feel blessed and better knowing that I have friends who knows what are friends for (:

Anyway, sorry for being random.
I think babies are cute. Not like a friend of mine who has the urge to kick every small living things. In short, babies are cute!
& This cuteness in babies have obviously been taken for granted by people! But ever wonder what exactly it is that makes them so cute?

JUST LOOK AT ME!

Anyway, last week has just been a total madness. I've just gotten back my bio test grades too! B for Bio.
"Why no A?", My superego asked.
"you think damn easy huh?", I replied.
Yes of course its easy la, I just wanna act act get B only ma.
ARGH!
Anyway, even if I did get A, I dont think I deserve it.
Cause there are many other friends studying harder than me! Some even got Cs and Ds, then I feel so bad after that. Cause I didnt study much for bio, just listen to them when they study-talk in school -_-
This week another test, I hope I can do well....

&&& just wanna random again, for those who have difficulties sleeping, insomnia or what you call that, please cry. Cause crying makes your eyes tired. And therefore, putting you to sleep. In other words, cry yourself to sleep. But make sure you dont go anywhere the next day, cause eyes would be sored.

Unspoken words
Like an anchor
Dragging me down
I can't breathe

Shriveled Lungs

Gasping for air
Hands grab nothing
Death looms

NO I'M NOT EMOING

2009-07-12T22:53:00.005+08:00

CAMWHORE IN SCHOOL WHILE WAITING FOR THE DAMN PE DENTAL TALK TO START!

Inbetween lesson break. lol

we didnt know hakim was behind -_-

OMG

CUTE

Kite look like from China hor? eh actually she is.

Woohoo

WA super cute

Nana carrying me lol. when kite and nana piggyback me, fafa whining, "why no one wanna carry me, i lighter than her." of course me ma, i cuter! =D oops

last friday at chalet..

Went out with BB today. hehehe go see her blog, what did i do to her. anyway, hope you had a great time! so so so sorry about ytd... love you love you haha.

2009-07-12T14:33:00.003+08:00

ehhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i'm so sorry..
joycegoh.

chalet night out at costa sand resort last fri.
im so happy i've gotten to meet UNITY!!!
played games, lost many rounds
drink drank drunk.
warm and me were trying to dance LZX - Cheng Yao, and all the korean songs MV.
but it was a on and off kinda thing cause we dont know the moves :O
because drinking too much make you wanna pee,
i peed a few times.. ok maybe i mean many times.
shikin sister was being sooo nice by escorting me back to the room to and fro to pee.
dead drunk, slept.

and ytd MS called to ask us out to slack
i was kinda reluctant.
after much persuasion i decided to go.
met up with D and L, cab over to find MS and JS.
arcaded and pooled
i didnt play tho.
head to pub after that
mad mad mad
i lost so many rounds again
i puke 5 times after that, ty for those who help me to sayang my back.
next time hit harder can, so soft make me vomit until very xinku.
and woke up early this morning, cause i feel like vomiting :O
dont laugh at me
the feeling totally suck.
yellowish liquid.
thank you lerelyn for taking care of me ytddd
i still got the fengyou smell on me =/
and i promise i wont get myself into this shit again.

i'll upload pictures some other days
am feeling shit now ):

i got you begging me for mercy

2009-07-09T18:01:00.005+08:00

Rochell has been mugging for the last few days...
OHHHH APPRAISE HER!!!!

Slept at like 3am last Sun, revising on f* bio.
I'm so freaking *ARGH* with it.. like you just wanna tear it up and burn it up so you'll never see it again, and it'll vanish from your life forever, and that you don't have to study it anymore! Wahahahaha. This was what I wanna do, but my superego was pulling me back, telling me to be a good girl, to study hard, to make my mum proud. AWWW, I sound like a filial kid. Eh ACTUALLY I AM!
OK so I studied, yeah, really study la. I tried to remember those f* stuffs, which I've forgotten already, cause my bio test ends today. I used my STM to study so cant keep the info too long. Maximum 1 day, after that = gone/blank (if never 'restock').
YAYNESS FINALLY TESTS ARE ALL OVER! *Only for the week tho :(*

Last tuesday had optech test and presentation, had to wear formal *suck*. Test was kinda difficult :( Presentation after test, shivering like hell. Dr V was there. Fish, make me cold and hot. Anyway I'm glad that he didn't comment on my standing posture and the way I speak HAHAHA. Everything went well :)

Got back chem results on wed, yayness, I ace chem.
Who say Rochell is a B-type-material? *Okay la maybe B-cup-material. LOL!*
Who say Rochell can't score As?
ARGH.

Anyway I had Dental Anatomy and Biology test today.
Dental Anatomy :'( Had to remember so MANY features of 16 different kinds of tooths. 16 seems little, but the entire description of a tooth is enough to fill up half a page. Test was not so good.
Biology :'( suck. I lost many marks.
Stay on to know my effing results. Bio seriously suck.

Oh yeah, HAHAHA I started on optech cavity preparation on the phantom head today! Its like treating on a real patient,
except for the fact that...
a) when i drill into the tooths, there's no blood cause it is all fake tooths.
b) 'patient' can't scream "ouch" when I sink my bur in too deep.
c) i can touch their sexy chest cause they can't talk/complain to Drs.

Its really difficult to do a cavity prep in such limited space. Especially when the tooth is already so small, and the limited space in mouth make it even more difficult to access the tooth. :( Im still not used to using the mouth mirror. I still prefer to trust on my eyes, use my eyes for DIRECT vision, not on mouth mirror for reflected image/INDIRECT vision. I know it's stupid. -_- but I DONT trust it. I scare when I use it, my cavity become like something else when seen from direct view. OK.. again, I know its stupid. -.-

THERES SOCIOLOGY PRESENTATION TOMORROW! Butterflies, don't find me in my stomach tomorrow.

&&& my thighs are toned! LOL!

2009-07-05T22:21:00.007+08:00

can anyone tell me whats 'urhonoo'?
because of some typo error,
some people mistook this for some meaning.
"whats urhonoo?"
"some jap word" *i fake her*
SHE REALLY GO AND GOOGLE IT!
ROFL - Rochell On Floor Laughing.

since today i happy, i post up some "cannot be exposed photos* of myself!

CHIO RIGHT. omg

okay la, the above photos all damn chio. cause it was taken like few months ago. not saying i now not chio. but i think im chio-er now. HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! someone say that im damn humble. now i wanna be insolent for awhile.. let me plssss. see the photos below. DONT TOUCH, my cute face. my poreless face.

see my eyes.
piang i lost my coloured contact lens after wearing for a week!
argh.
okay la i bring you guys more chio photos in time to come.
dont miss me too much.

anyway, clubbing at dbl o last last night was fun!
=D

2009-07-03T02:12:00.002+08:00

i thought i was going to get a tongue lashing from DR IRFAN ALI today.
he called me cause i didnt do elearning for chem which i have to submit to Ms lye on 2nd july before 3pm. =(
lol.
i just done with chem la,
wa piang so easy.
*act only*
i hope she wont scold me la.

haha i went out to meet mega retard today.
wa liao cut hair again.
bringing up this point,
i very long never cut hair already!!
as in, really go to the barber to cut.
i everytime cut my own fringe de.
that explains why i look so good! (:
shall visit the barber soon.
my hair so cool, but weathers hot :(

after then i bused to khatib to meet BF.
heng megaretard sms woke me, or i think i'll be at yishun station alr.
BF was so good today.
everytime treat me eat good food.
or i must say, treat EVERY girls.
piang.
went to orchard to look for his fav shop outlet.
to his dismay, theres no British India there, awwww!
then to Bugis new mall.
ate at some burger restaurant.
wah i tell you, we got a huge shock!

he thinks his hair damn nice, i beg to differ!

The feelings damn awesome! like you'll never be lack of food(fries) for the rest of your life lidat.

dont play play, the beef patty also damn big!

The leftovers.. really cant finish it. we ate like only two-fifth of the fries.

anyway, i think i look cute here. my eyes so big, pure and innocent. a pity he spoils the whole pic =( jkjk!

wah its really a pity.
so ex!
anyway, can you believe it?
im stronger den BF.
=D
he carried me for like few metres, was already panting like my dog just ran few km.
while i could carry him for few metres, without feeling a thing!
=D

slept in bus again, bloody ass missed few stops, i felt my hair wet for a moment.

then he told me he drooled! yuckkkkkkkkkkk =/

anyway, people tell me why do you blog?
okay there might be several reasons right...
maybe its a good practice when it comes to writing essays for schools, etc..
or maybe to write down happenings of the days etc, for one to look back on when one is old.
you know what,
a friend of mine super cute.
she blog, next few days...
DELETE!
this goes on and on.
if you know who you are...
please stop.
cause theres alot of my pretty pics in your blog lehhhhhhh!

ok bye =)

BF = Big Flirt

2009-06-30T06:00:00.003+08:00

damn it i feel like ive just wasted 2 weeks plus of hols, for living such life.
PLAY SLEEP EAT PLAY SLEEP EAT WATCH TV.
outoutout in the night, sleep in the day. whats this man!
still, im not doing anything :'(
I WANT TO MUG I WANT TO STUDY but the moment i sit my butt ache, my eyes wanna close.
info just cant seem to get in after reading notes. =x
den i go to sleep again :/

ps-ed J just now wakakaka,
heng i didnt go town to drink with them,
but i went at night since he and his gf came all the way to my house. =/
thanks for buying 8 bottles of vodkas la,
i mention 'vodka' i really feel like puking yuckyuckyuck
anw i feel damn hungry now :(
& sleepy............

dont care i wanna watch porn le bb!

2009-06-28T04:35:00.003+08:00

JoyceGoh rock my foot.
& I rock her! (:

anyway take care of yourself DONT FALL SICK!

2009-06-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

YEEHA. I just got back from church. Woah woah woah, I learn something today! Dont play play, JOYCEGOH MENTIONED THAT I LEARN FAST! =/ Anyway, yeah, I've overcome my jealousy LOL!

TELL ME MY FRINGE LOOK LIKE LZX!

ME LOVE HER! =D *JOYCE GANDONG MA?*

Last 2 days I went out with FT and GR. Initially, we wanted to bring her to town area to explore. But because of time constraint, we couldnt do that. :((((( so we settle in for our dinner at Plaza Sing Mos Burger Restaurant, and took a short walk nearby. Then something happened beyond our imagination, we saw GR walking towards an old man. We were wondering what he was trying to do till he tried to snatch the old mans bag but because he was too weak or something, it was to no avail. The man held onto his bag DAMN tightly can. Thank God I was quick enough to snap a shot. GOT CHA!

And because of this failed attempt, most imptly because he did not want to return back as a 'cannot-make-it-robber', he decided to make another move.. which is
PLAN B - STEAL VALUABLES ONLY!
From the pic here, you can see he's trying to dip his filthy hands into the mans bag. OH MY TIAN! Me and FT were damn shocked!

In the end, he got a bashing from the old man. Cause he blind ma. Then he used his crutch to hit his little brother. So right now GR is TEMPORARY 'UNMAN' =D YAY! And omg he cried so hard lying on the floor. Me and FT run away leaving him there alone.

AND YA! NEXT WEEK ROCHELL TAI HAS NO SCHOOL!

Anyway, close up view of my darlings hair LOL! So cute omg, shuai dai le. I think guys look good with short neat hair. Not like those growing till cannot see ears and eyes. Really make me feel like snipping them off for them. I think its perfectly GROSS! So please dont talk to me, LONG HAIRED guy. you look like godzilla. And I also think guys look BETTER with normal t-shirt and jeans, cause trying too hard to look cool = KNS.

My hair damn sweet right, damn random. Taken few weeks ago. I dont know why the colour falls in the middle.

Anyway, I got a confession to make. Im childish and sick and all that you can think of. Actually i only love girls, so guys stay away. All lessies bring it on. =)

i love my girlfriends.

2009-06-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

Na Na Na Na, Na Na Na Na, Hey Hey Hey, Goodbye

hottttttttttttttt =((( I feel like going to the national geographic again..

2009-06-21T19:59:00.005+08:00

Wapianggg singapore damn hot!
and yesterday, something bad happen.
the first time i got a bad bad phobia.
:'(
kpo people ask me directly if you wanna know. =/

i feel guilty, i feel lost.

2009-06-16T23:55:00.004+08:00

Rochell Tai:
>> woke up late today.
>> went all the way to sch to borrow books today.
>> did something very thickskinned today.
>> ate soo much today.
>> had small boy - lady talk today.
>> had girls talk today.
>> no longer hate guys to the core today.
>> wants to try out something starting from today.

ROCHELL TAI IS TRYING TO ADVERTISE TODAY! OMG!

2009-06-15T20:25:00.003+08:00

Rochell got a new phone; thanks to Fries.
Rochell learns illegal driving; thanks to Fries.
Rochell being treated of food, drinks and games, etc; thanks to Fries, not forgetting Guorong hahahha.

okay updated.

2009-06-13T17:36:00.000+08:00

Finally holidayssssssss is hereeeeeeeeeeee!
OMG I cant believe this,
I'm sooo done with Microbio and Chem!
Sad part was that,
for Microbio,
I died badly,
really bad.
Cause my mind couldn't function well,
I cant find the correct answers in my brain to answer the question asked.
I was like flipping through my brain,
opening drawers,
half a second for each,
finding for the correct answer.
Even before the first question, my heart was beating damn fast already.
When the powerpoint slide started,
I realised I was too excited and this resulted in me forgotting what I've studied.
Totally blanked!
And cause teacher said there was 15 questions only,
I studied lightly cause I thought I knew everything already =/
This taught me not to be overconfident.
Yes no doubt there was 15 question only.
Q1 - HAVE TO ANSWER 3 PARTS!
LOL then only got 2mins to answer Q1.
I got flustered up by time.

And the day before microbio test,
Joyce and haksoon still asked me out.
Make me cannot make full use of my day lor
And I shall blame them if I cant get A for microbio muahahhaa.
JOYCEGOH TAG ME THOSE PHOTOS IN FB LEH.

So yesterday was the last day before hols start!
Had gathering with the yr 2s and 3s.
Pretty small gathering cause theres only 1 class per year.
OUR YEAR HAS THE MOST GUYS!
GAWD.
SISSIES!
=/
After that went out to chill with Lerelyn, Su, Ben, Shabel, Fries
like crazy.
anyway I super lazy to upload pictures.
those who have pleaseeeeeeee tag in fb.
thank you so much!

I wanna go for reverse bungee.
without tying my hair.
I wanna try G string too.
Like you have to dig something out from your ass every second.
I wonder how people take that.
Nana said teacher reminded her of me during sociology class.
"The acts of deviances - Adjusting private parts in public"
Bloody hell I dont!
Arse.

anyway im super hungry
bye

2009-06-11T16:52:00.000+08:00

MICROBIO! :'(
Dorothys such a hardworking arse.
But nehmind I still love her! (:
Actually I love hardworking peeps.
&& I LOVE MYSELF, TOO! =/
Cause I AM ONE what.

Nehmind shall start mugging.

Microbio test tmr.
IM SO XCITED!

OMG I FINALLY FOUND THE SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Beyond exhaustion

2009-06-10T17:52:00.000+08:00

I was feeling pretty demoralised because everyone else(hardworking ones=/) studied much harder than me for Chem test.
Especially when I started to read Dorothys notes.
Freak me out.
My mind was racing with apprehension and excitement before chem test.
Then TADA!
Done with chem test!
I seriously hope I could do better.
Afterall, I wanna prove that I can do better then him
sometimes it really hurts,
cause he's better than me in everything.
:(

anyway,
my dearest sister changed the arrangements of beds, cupboards in my room.
so nice of her.
i show you.

lol like you guys can see the arrangements -.-
she took the bigbig table :'(
the radio! argh!
anyway thats my new dog, Junior!
Its a golden retriever, 3 months old.
I so dont want it to grow =(

Fri microbio test. :'(

*arghhhhh* microbiology.. microbiology..

"suffering overdosage of MICROBIOLOGY"

I'm sure all students taking the microbiology module grew at least one pimple/one strand of white hair/one extra brain.

2009-06-09T22:51:00.003+08:00

Like finally, I've dyed my hair brown.
I mean, medium brown.
SOME people cant spot,
while SOME OTHERS are so damn observant!
Even can count the layers of foundations I've applied on my beautiful and poreless face.
=/
Then, I wanna say
ROCHELL TAI HAS FINALLY SAT ON A BIKE!!
So happy, like no longer a bike virgin!
WOOHOO!
Special thanks to himhimhim
So touched!

Anyway,
Mummy has been nagging and nagging over these few days.
"EVERY FRI AND WEEKENDS COME HOME NEXT MORNING. YOU AND DAN LIN(my sis) GETTING FROM BAD TO WORSE YOU KNOW ANOT."
I know.
As if it wasn't naggy enough,
She also nagged on my table manners,
"Zhi Lin you eat that time can dont zhak zhak zhak zhak zhak anot. Very noisy like china woman. you eat with friends they never complain huh? And very relaxing hor, put 2 legs up on chair. People see already thought your mother never teach you manners."
I was like,
"Mum, i only at home do this leh. I wont do this in public la. Only you get to see this, so be honoured lah!"

Damn it, i still love her.
but i cherish time alone when i could have my meals without her correcting on my manners. =/

anyway i gotta drink soup and start mugging again! lol.

2009-06-04T19:33:00.001+08:00

I know I've got a wide smile and cute.. I mean, small eyes.
Kite looked at me today with a questioning mind while I was busy talking to SJ and Ain.
We were making so much noise in the train till I felt as if someone was staring hard at me.
She then questioned,
"Rochell, why are you always so cheerful, happy and talkative?"
Talkative? How can you kite!
This is being sociable!
Ain added STUFF in.
"Cause she's from IMH"
BH!
Then want me keep quiet and emo huh!
Its damn difficult can.
Unless I'm alone or during lectures,
I know I shouldn't talk to anyone cause it WILL definitely affect them.
But sitting down and staying still for the whole 3 hours in lecture room isn't what I can do.
It'll kill my backside!
As in, I NEED to stand. I NEED to move. I NEED to SPEAK or I'll seriously sleep and die.
And usually nana would be the one who'll revive me =D

Optech prac today =D
Damn damn sad.
I broke the wax while trying to carve the thin thin root..
Like 3 times!
Then I tried to melt wax to patch the whole root.
But it'll never be perfect anymore =(((
Break till I feel like...........
Sian diao!
But I still love carving! =)

Went to catch a movie with Ain just now.
Headed to town,
But because Ain's so fickle-minded,
we spend a whole hour touring around,
looking for newspaper.
Then decided to watch Hannah Montana instead of Angels and Demons =((
but still we enjoyed the show =)
LUCAS TILL IS SO SO SO HOT!
His smile ~~~!!!
oh-so-sweet!

Sianed anyone know how to fly kite?
The first thing I wanna do after Os was to fly kite lor.
Until now still havent! =/

yay
someone gonna sit bike tmr ^^

2009-06-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

WAH KELVIN LI YOU BETTER REMEMBER TO THANK GOD CAUSE MY LAPPY IS ALRIGHT!
and yes thanks for making money grow in my laptop huh.

Today was a good day (:
started off with dental anatomy.
passed both tests but I NOT HAPPY!
get the drift.
i'm only average. =(
which means, i might fail anytime.
NooooOOOooooOOOoooooOOOOoooO!

Optech lesson, as usual,
made my eyelids heavy :(
but optech prac, was fun (:

I carved this. kel tot it was a sharp sharp teeth. Dyeh that one root laaa..

My fillings lol.

Went to meet kel after that.
asked him to help me with some stuff.
he willingly agreed!
its unbelievable la.
then went to pizzahut.
im freaking full.
chose the 2 pizza meal.
thanks for treat!
and i found out something about him..
he got 王子病!

OK GTG! =)

2009-06-01T23:25:00.002+08:00

I have sleep bruxism. :(

2009-05-31T21:01:00.004+08:00

my tongueeeeeeeee cant follow.
the fast fast rap :O

I was rendered speechless...

2009-05-31T17:27:00.003+08:00

I'm unable to study today. I don't know why.
Maybe it's just because the weather is too too hot.
I know that's simply just an excuse.
But I really dont feel like touching on chemistry.
Decided to use lappy to do AP (Applying Psychology) project instead.
& Maybe in the night i'll start to read up on my microbiology notes.
&&&& biology I hope.
Or someone will complain
"I lend my notes to someone who'll not read it at all"
That disgusting topic. Made me feel less pure. =/
Recently I was forced to prick Arron's finger for blood.
Failed attempt because I didnt dare to exert much force.
But still he bled a lil and still had to undergo another prick by Noel! lol!
And also I saw this small boy and mans thingy in the powerpoint slides.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Okay la imma hardworking girl.
going do AP alr.
BYE!
=D

2009-05-31T02:53:00.004+08:00

just came home this place
dont know what place
got bridge and lightings i think
im so sorry im unable to think about venues now
before relaxing there
ms lerelny and omg im so sorry i forgot whats his name.
another guy... ms friend
we went to somewhere (i lazy to think where we went)
wantedd to get into this thai club but asshole the security guard diedie wanna see my ic
cannot go in since im not 18 yet =((((((
so we went to a pub nearby
sing K too.
hahhaa this old lady spoil the whole fun
but i pity her too :O
she came in and tell us she fell just now
could see that she was very very drunk
and while she was telling us about it
her tears were falling too
she wanted to grab our drinks to drown down her sorrows

i told her not to drink but she insisted
so i snatch ms and lerelyn drinks from her and gulp it down myself
cause they were busy singing...
this resulted in me puking in the toilet after that which is damn embarassing

i felt like i've just came out from a spinning machine

i peed every 7-10 mins.
ok damn sleepy.

but sry ms and to the who..

for psing halfway
nights!

2009-05-27T17:19:00.003+08:00

Is it me or you? Whats the meaning of this?
I've never liked quarrels.
After umpty times of silly arguements,
Who exactly are you?
Change is inevitable.
Sorry for wasting your time.
Acceptance is a choice, I've tried..
But decided not to anymore.
Stay away from me,
I'll only bring you agony.
I'm not your cup of tea.
SL.

-

Swine flu breakout in S'pore today. Omg I'm so excited :P
Hope that things will get out of ____ so that tests and all could be ___________ :D
See only the good stuff :O
But when it really do happen, more lifes would be gone,
just in exchange for tests to be ___________.
Omg Rochell how could you be so evil.
Ok la,
Actually I hope the virus wouldn't spread/worsen,
but wish for PM to tell all schools to stop for a period,

cause I care for everyone's safety mah.
Really.
=D

My hair got clinic smell.
eeyer.
I was dying from a massive cramp just now.
I swear I've never had such painful cramps before.
Ok maybe I'm exaggerating.
But the pain was overwhelming!
My immune system is going wonky but I'm pretty sure it's not swine flu. :O

oohyea.
Tomorrow optech!
:'(
My eyes will be damn 'hawt' again.
Carving the premolar intensively on wax using wax knife and lecrons.
Just pretend you're looking at the little red dot on the worlds' map, for hours.
Just like a _______. :0
I think I wanna redo my incisor. =(
The marginal ridge and the "whats-that-called-ah?" is wayyyy too deep (I suddenly forgot whats cingulum :0),
look very prone to having caries in future. :0
But most of the class started on premolars already.
Which is much much more difficult?
No, I guess the right word is challenging.
=/
Erm, see how it goes. =D

2009-05-26T22:33:00.002+08:00

Went out to play today. Had Kfc.. those chickens went to gym. so muscular they broke my teeths =(

tmr chem... omgomgomg.

2009-05-25T19:11:00.000+08:00

I woke up on a different side of bed today.
Sometimes I feel that I'm leading a humdrum life.
When the past is gone,
I realised I missed them all too much.
I am going into the future.
Wayfaring towards it.
When everything looks so new and concealed.
Someone said 'life' is to study, find a proper job, get married, have children, retire and die?
But I've always believe there's more to life.
God is always so exciting and unpredictable.
Just like me! ;D

Tomorrow's TUESDAY!
NO SCHOOL!
MUAHAHAHHAHA.
But sigh, have to do e-learning.

Oh yea! I went blog-hopping.
Then bloody hell! I saw this freaking stuff in Izahs blog.

Btw, now's week 6 =(

WEEK 8:
chemistry written test (30%)
microbiology practical test (30%)

WEEK 9-10:
BREAK

WEEK 11:
dental anatomy written test (25%)
operative technique written test (25%)

WEEK 12:
biological science practical test (40%)

WEEK 13:
dental anatomy practical test (15%)

WEEK 14:
sociology presentation (40%)

WEEK 15:
psychology presentation (40%) [may change to week 13/17]

WEEK 16:
head and neck anatomy practical test (30%)
microbiology written test (70%)

WEEK 17:
head and neck anatomy written test (70%)

WEEK 18:
STUDY BREAK

WEEK 19 - 20:
SEMESTRAL EXAM

(Its COPY AND PASTE! Sorry Izah.)
The moment I saw it,
I immediately use my handphone to take note of it sia!.
Like so automatic, without mummy pushing me..
So all of you must know, exams are very important to ROCHELL! =D
Esp when its time for last minute revision.
Which I HOPE I wont!

School has been nothing but a fat enormous huge load.
MUST. KEEP. MY. MOUTH. SHUT.
Shaddup, Rochell.

School was good for me,

today. =)

2009-05-23T01:37:00.011+08:00

i wanna blog!
i feel so out of the world alr.
what kind of english is this?
lol!
nvm i self entertaining..

eh anyway huh
i wanna zi-high
since someone mention i like to emo
sigh...
i mean..
smile!...

anyway these days im uber busy
actually not really busy
just that i chose to spend my time this way
as in,
i dont really reject ppl coming my way
unless i've alr got sth else on..

but i think i got to learn to reject too or i'll seriously fail my exams.
see its bold.. so try not to ask me out pls...

joyce dont worry you're special.

last fri, i think it was on 15 may
i rmb taking photos of the real tooths in lab.
disgusting man!
had to identify them
was about to throw them against the wall while identifying.
den Dr Shalene told me to stop trying.. claiming that it would make me become even more frustrated..... but nyeh nyeh im sure i can do this one day..

after school met SL at tamp. ate pastamania. he treat laaa. wa liew!

i really dont know what is this though i ate this -.- cabonara is it?

after eating his buddy called and ask him to go over to esplanade to chill... so SL went home to bath. saw his dog and his bro.. plus his mum sleep talking =x cuteee...
head down to the esplanade after that.

CHAO AH BENG!
Already very sleepy laaa...
happened during midnight 4 plus 5am

homed at 7am. it was a killer.

i fall and smack myself straight onto bed!

Woke up damn late the next day.. around 6pm =x

SL brought me food..
he cooked leh.. dont play play.. ah beng can cook!

oh yea this injury on my toe has healed. i still rmb how i got this.. i kicked the wall at the side. mummy thought i was angry -.-

Next day was a sunday,
went to uncle's house.
haha saw my nephew.
he was so cuteeee...
but what the hell he forget me..
he called my 2 youngest sister "Aunty" and me "jiejie".
WAHAHAHA.
forgetting is a good thing afterall =P

After that meet sl at tamp 1.
go see see look look again..
then met up with ms and his friend plus lerelyn..
was a last min decision..
went to ws xin wang cafe..
still rmb this.. but the mango wasnt as good...

head home after that around 11 plus pm...
-

This was taken after archery training..
on Mon.
oh yea..
took the test for archery alr
hope i'll be able to pass it.. d
en maybe i'll want to be train as a competitor..
=D

Lol and tues went out to arcade right after school ends..
its always after school then i'll go out to chill.
by the time i reach home,
theres no more energy to study =(
actually always play arcade de..
but purposely wanna mention it on this day cause i rmb psing lerelyn to play with sl!
haha evil....
oh ya..
try this milkshake at carls jr.
its nice..
but share it cause its damn fattening!
auntyannes is in tamp 1 HAAHA!

Then Lerelyn cabbed over to ws to meet sl and me on wed night.
then we cabbed over to changi village to meet ms.
our usual dishes,
stringray,
chicken wing,
veg and oyster omelette.
after eating.. must exercise mah. sl say i've gone mad. dancing with trees

ms friend came later to pick us up..
went to 'cheers' to get some drinks before heading to bishan fishing area to catch prawns.
lerelyn you sucker cant hold your liquor then dont drink...!
make me hold you and sway tgt with you...!
i'll never wanna drink tgt with her again la.
lol jkjk...
but i meant the last sentence.
=D
oh ya..
we manage to catch 2 prawns only..
its freaking big..!
After then ms friend fetch us back home since he was driving..
so nice..

it was late by the time i reached home..
was planning not to sleep since it was alr 4 plus am
and i had to wake up at 630am afterwards to attend lectures.
but my very heavy eyelids forced my eyes close
and i felt as if i was being throw into lalaland for a few hours.
before i knew it,
it was alr 10am.
rushed and managed to get out of the house by 11am.
bused to mrt station and sl was there alr..
after seeing me off to sch he went to register for some army stuff and enquire for the signing on thingy...
so proud of him man..
chao ah beng gogogo!
you can do it!
=D
thank God i didnt miss the microbiology prac lesson.. =D
after that we had sociology.
nothing goes in..
its like..
i catch no balls.
after sch end,
sl came down to my sch again after enquiring for his stuff.
went to bugis.
yay i bought a bag and tights.
lol!
wanted to catch a movie but decided not to in the end.
finally i've gotten a watch for myself.
sl was complaining whenever i wanna buy something.
he said go shopping with girls are always so troublesome.
girls you can start whacking if you want.
=)

yay! finally.. dont anyhow assume

2009-05-19T22:22:00.002+08:00

i feel like throwing many stuffs real hard
anything related to science
after Os i swore not to touch science anymore
but im freaking back at this again
:'( im feeling damn angry but at the same time
i've gotta accept all these.
CHEMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can i fucking make you vanish?

2009-05-14T18:56:00.003+08:00

ROCHELL TAI DONT UNDERSTAND BIOLOGY
DENTAL ANATOMY AND HISTOLOGY IS KILLING ME
HEAD AND NECK ANATOMY IS KILLING ME TOO
STOP BEING SO COMPLICATED AND IRRITATING
SOCIO AND PSYCHO I WANNA UNDERSTAND YOU PLEASE STOP BEING SO CONSERVATIVE!

blame it all on modules
but never on yourself for not being able to understand them =D

2009-05-11T00:49:00.008+08:00

psps if its blur..

went out just now for kfc with super mega big idiot

HAHA

then slack a lil while

omg im so sorry if im that blur laa

but this time its purely BLUR

not bioing other hot guys kay

and i could see the joyceGOH chicken like to go to the gym

haha so should she! oops!

anyway i got the song alr.

whhooo hooo!

thank you joyce...

i played with fire today

HAHA

like back to the old days

when i used to fall sick whenever i inhale too much smoke

but i think im pretty alright now

cause the smoke was blowing another direction

thank God no one scold us =x

wahahahha i think imma sleep anytime soon cause im super tired.

if i dont sleep now

i'll probly have no time to recover my sleep on mon

cause mon is a hectic day for me

i hate it

but i still think i'll love archery

i dont wanna risk trading in my solitude.

2009-05-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

anyone got this song?!?!?!??!

2009-05-09T01:34:00.010+08:00

Now imma upload all pictures since im freaking free so please say thank you! =D

This was taken on Mon after kayaking training. Look like im the strongest right? LOL! Super toot, dont laugh!

After the tedious training, SL came all the way down to nyp to help me carry my ponderous bag. so nice of him right....
Guess where we ate...

SUPERDOG in WHITESANDS! PS my face damn oily!

SL! ACT SI WEN!

Dont try this! Not nice one... like lao sai plus something white and slimy.. oops

They jealous im in the center.. childish lahhhh in lab still play!!!! LOL!... actually i ran all the way in front from few metres away before they took this shot.. you can see Ain is totally pissed, nana is pushing my head, fafa wanting to dap me with duster and sujuan laughing like mad woman... lol kidding!

we just grab the dont know what thing to act act.. havent use it for prac yet! after that realise that we've gripped it upside down! and i cant believe we made this blunder!

fafa, wiwi, meme

omg!

I HATE JEANS!

CUTE RIGHT!?!?! there are smaller tooths!

do you know why we had to wear gloves and masks? cause most of us tend to dig nose even before prac starts HAHA =D

yay finally done.. hopefully i'll be able to take more photos.. not me.. but the laboratory equipments and stuffs. i think its damn interesting haha. span>

met SUPER BIG MEGA IDIOT just now for dinner cum supper.
ordered so much we could ALMOST finish those..

met her in the morning like a typical singaporean.. the kiasus.. omg.. then night again at bedok 85.. seriously can diee... ass, she slept without me! hurh!

2009-05-07T18:01:00.001+08:00

im fucking pissed

my fear is irrational. i want to face it down, erase it from my life.

2009-05-06T20:48:00.005+08:00

waaaa bloody idiot
soon my brother is going to snatch away my laptop and ipod..!
dad = CMI
bro = CMI2

badminton, kayaking, archery..
what about vasper?
im so ashamed to say
i didnt get into the badmintons team cause i didnt managed to win the last round.
kayaking was fun but tiring
actually i dont really mind
what makes me so afraid was because the seniors girls arm were all sooo muscular! =x
then i went for archery today
hahaha
fun but arm gets tired easily
for a moment i thought i was the bowgirl character in maple
i cant even pull out the arrows from the board..
... due to sweaty palms.
argh so paiseh.

psychology lecture..
was great
i can read you guys mind hohohohoho!
no la kidding.
scare you only.
it was understandable
but complicating...
chem lectures..
eyelids heavy!
i dont like optech lectures too.
i freaking dont want to fall asleep lor
but my eyelids damn freaking heavy leh
bloody hell
i slap my eyes also no use
cause Dr Ali's voice is way toooooo lowwwww and slowwwwwww...
tho i loved the pracs
carving of tooths and grilling them
i met cuter teeths.
;D

damn.. i needa do colouring le
feel like small kid
colouring tooths and everything
too many memory work to do
God.. please give me 4GB memory card
its all that i ask from you....

JOYCEGOH PLEASE PRAY FOR ME HEHEHEHEHE!

eeee
i promised not to whine
ehh...
i did not whine in the above text right...??
i HOPE i didnt..

oh yes
i didnt manage to donate my blood today
due to time constraint
the one who gets my blood is soooo damn lucky laaa!
haha i buay buah
okokay
i WILL do it tmr...
needles needles im coming!!!!
duncha hurt me...!
airtime hurt me one..
like classical conditioning
sight of needles -> pain -> afraid
sight of needles -> afraid
omg i learnt so fast
shows i pay attention during psy lectures =D

papering over the truth with a pretty lie?

2009-05-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

this will be a brief one!
time is precious
i need to sleep!
joyceGOH say ty!

fri went out to meet joyce at tm
she brought zhelun
then saw another 2 of her friends
then somehow the group became bigger
she shove me aside after lerelyn came,
coalesced with her friends for mj and drinking
idiot right
then zhe lun went off after that
SL and ah xing came
intro-ed them to lerelyn
she finally decide not to go pub
went to recapture my childhood memories
ah xing and lerelyn i know they all damn old dont play swings one
but i think its damn fun.
it brings laughter and joy.
but after that ah xing left
SL lerelyn and me cabbed to town for a drink
thankyou SL for the treat..
2 jugs heinken, 2 whiskey sour (the glass DAM SMALL), & a pizza worth a total of 106 BUCKS!
he paid for the cab fare too.
feel so indebt man!

i shouldn't have touched that stick
you guys quit it soon laaa.
disgusting smelly idiot faggots.
=x
dont use it in front of me.

joyce that idiot phone undergoing chemotherapy treatment.
sigh..
i hope the cells are not spreading.
all the best
i shall use telepathy to communicate with her now

shit
my e learning not done
ive not been studying
ive wasted my time

*ROCHELL TAI! PLS GET YOUR ASS OUTTA HERE NOW!*

2009-05-01T01:28:00.001+08:00

gah
im very lazy to blog
but because JOYCEGOH forced me to
i give way
what a good friend am i right

ytd lerelyn packed food to my house again
for me and mummy!
so nice of her..
haha

today met joyce at 7am
she made sandwich for me
you dont think i'll simmer down OK!
you made me late for lectures
hahaha just kidding
dont need feel guilty
i really love those sandwich laaa
hahahahhaha
slack awhile at ws before heading to school with her
then parted..
she cried.... =D
reached around 8.45am to see a bunch of fellow mates waiting at the fountain..
i felt like a princess LOL
JKJK!
after school stayed on for awhile
take pics and stuff
den slack
omg im so scare
todays quiz..
even a basic palmers notation i also can get confused and mixed up
so frustrating

nana and aiai..

nana and me

nana, fafa *bhb + super cute & talkative*, me

BLURRED

unglam

les!

big headed =x

class rep Lian Zhi!!!!! btw im taller... hehehe

Class rep, secretary, assistant class rep. what am i man....
"cutie lah!" :D

met up with joyce again at night in WS

thats why im soooo happy today..

(aiya, say abit of lie today nevermind one la)

enyao and haky was there too

chat, eat, bibled

den homed.

webcamed

she so lame!

sianed she too excited now

she wanna read my blog

rushing me to end off this post

sigh!

sorry readers i've got to end abruptly

anything find her...

her link is there ;D

bb!

2009-04-27T22:39:00.003+08:00

whoo!
i just came home
i've got my tooth fixed
tho its not 100% perfect yet
have to go back again.
i was so afraid initially
the sight of equipments and the smell of the clinic
wanted to grab fangting hands during the treatment cause the pain was unbearable
but i missed it
lian zhi ask what i was trying to do but i just shuddup cause he laughed at me for being so afraid when i went into the clinical room!
hurh!
but anyway,
LZ, death is part and parcel of life
so CHEER UP alright!
AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME 3 FRIENDS ARE STANDING BESIDE ME AND STARING INTO MY MOUTH WHILE THE DENTIST IS TREATING ME! OMG...
blood you suck la.
thank God theres no decay at all
she say i've been taking care of my teeth well leh!
only never brush the posterior properly
lol dont want say le
later being called as bhb again
anyway i gtg!
love you guys!

walking in the dark between confusions, is comforting...

2009-04-27T01:57:00.003+08:00

wa lao
i just reached home
rarrr sch starting
and its the starting of week 2 now..
soon it'll be week 3..
den 4..
den 5..
and so on...
till week 16 to 17
which would mark the start of my exam papers!
this is so scary!
but i still wanna blog la!
haha

this is so damn nice. hot hot drum is loved tho i ate the original one.

fattening piece of thing.

while walking with sha,
i was screaming with my pretty high pitch voice
sha said i sound like i was being raped
got me so scare till i decided to take a cab back home
the stupid cab fare cost me a total of 5 bucks!...
just for a 1 min ride home from downtown east. -.-!

webcamed, took loads of pics.
i wont upload those unglam ones.
LOL!

and sorry la sha and lerelyn
for not replying you all smses and calls
i was REALLY busy!
i promise not to do it again
=/

i feel safe and loved.

2009-04-25T00:50:00.004+08:00

hheheheh i feel like im drifting away from blogger
schools fun!
classmates, lecturers
they are all damn nice
excepts for those rules and everything
no singlish, chinese
dressings, hair, nail polish and stuff
i got picked by mdm quek few times while doing pracs
pracs are always fun
its always the time to bombard teachers with questions
teeths all so cute
carving and everything
they say its the time to show off our knowledge
you guys know what is interdental papilla anot?!
LOL!
scarly you all know since young alr =x
oh ya
im dyeing my beautiful hair soon... oh noooooo!
besides that everything else is fine!
i shall keep away with negative thoughts
cause i believe every route i take definitely has got its own pros and cons
i'm thankful that our lovable God has been so good to me!
gotten a laptop
i was so surprised when mum, dad and bro came down to nyp to get a lappy for me
thank youuuuuuuuuu!
and i've joined badminton
trial next tues omg
yayness for everything starting off so smoothly
tho i got a little insecure earlier.
been praying for peace and God is always so gracious.
to end off
just wanna say that
right now
i wanna focus on studies only
not forgetting relationship with God, fam & friends (=

if i dont get organized, i wont have any fun.

let this be a call for change!

2009-04-20T17:32:00.003+08:00

i wanna whine about today
but no..
im not gonna do it here

late for all classes

didnt manage to get those set of pathetic booklets!!!!

not even 1........
managed to leave early cause there was no prac
yay
i wanna die

wah just now on my way back home
i saw a touching scene
the way a bf helped his gf
was just so amazing...
i wished i was her for a moment LOL!

alright gtg!

the only thing between detonation and me is time.

2009-04-20T00:05:00.004+08:00

school starting tmr!
sooooooooo sad but excited at the same time
like what kel said
im still in my hol mood.
but come on!
its still hol,
school haven even started you lil piece of unworthy stuff.

freaking cute and hawt!

ahahahaha i laughed till i .........

photos uploaded in slide. lazy to upload here

2009-04-18T22:28:00.005+08:00

#1 Promise to care
#2 Promise to spend time
#3 Promise to protect

this is what i learnt
haha

while subwaying,
sis msg me.
sis: at night you wanna go club? Eric going.
me: Dont want club.
sis: Whoo! You rocks!!! K good. Steady one you. I thought you will tempted to go de. K lor.
of course i rock la.
feel so proud of it manzzzzz!
LOL!

anyway
these days full of dirty topics.
LOL!
im sorry if i've polluted hak and joyce mind
cause i've only 4 hours of sleep
plus listening to dirty stuffs the day before =x

thank you joyce ah for mentioning how high am i -.-

anyway i've linked! *updated*

but i didnt know the service was about that topic too haha.
not in a bad way though
just learn how to deal with relationships and stuffs

im super happy cause God is hearing my prayer
i always felt he's been guiding and blessing me all along
though imma great sinner!!!
so touched by his love laa.
now i wanna sing untouched by the veronicas
guess what
i jumped on the bed whil singing Love Games by Lady Gaga
the wood break leh.
zzz

Let's have some fun,
This beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
Don't think too much just bust that kick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

Let's play a love game,
Play a love game
Do you want love or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans le love game?

Let's play a love game,
Play a love game
Do you want love or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans le love game?

the linked triangle, the similiar words

2009-04-18T11:11:00.000+08:00

few days never blog
seems like so long
anyway this will be a quick one
cuz im rushing for time
wont upload pics
cause it takes freaking long to load!
will upload those soon in my slide (:

15th April,
went swimming alone.
saw this lifeguard.
HAHA
young and hawt!

16th April,
went swimming with sister,
saw that lifeguard again
this time he talked to us.
then he say he saw me ytd.
nice memory.
whooo!!
free swimming lessons in future.
yay!
sis claimed its her credit OMGzzzzz!
=D
ok la BITCH ITS YOUR CREDIT HAHA

-

after then,
homed to bathe and change
meet up with lerelyn
she lure me there
only to see another unexpected guy coming
its ZHOU JIAN!!!!!!!
haha saw him in club before
this time im really surprised
dinnered,
arcaded,
pooled,
suppered,
walked like !@#$%^&*
then lerelyns friend in trouble
MS went off first
ZJ accompanied till fries arrived
to pick us up to look for tania.
thanks ZJ for staying till so late!
chatted for quite some time at tania's condo
then went off to simpang bedok to have supper AGAIN!
omg lerelyn's craving.
i didnt eat much.
just drink
not worth the calories can?!
homed at 5am

17th April
couldnt wake up for orientation HAHA
met up with hak.
so last min!
lol
rushed like shit to ws
before that he told me going to parkway
then i wore a skirt
after reaching
i asked
"going where"
"we are going to parkway parade, the beside"
"huh? the beside?"
"a friends place"
oh wtf
then i knew it'll be like some kind of fellowship
sit on floor like small kid and stuff
he didnt tell me
wa liao
so ps
but eventually they gave me a pillow lol.
after that went home
lerelyn cooked
for me =D
specially bring to my house leh
with fries
hahaha
omg
but i already damn full la
but still ate abit give her face LOL!
she keep cooking nowadays
cause i kept whining in the past
"wa liao keep cooking for him never cook for me!"
chat till 3 plus 4 am
yuck i learnt dirty stuff from fries
lol
he's like a woman
he knows everything...
=x

alrighttttttttttt needa go nowwwww
and something i dont know
mon what time report
yuck
i just realise i didnt know
lol

dad: where you going?
me: to church
dad: which church?
me: dont know yet, my friend bringing me (i didnt say city harvest cause i will know he'll flare up)
dad: ok you better not go to those church like city harvest or what, not decent like devil type.
me: *quiet*
dad: *pass me 20$, stare at me like i did sth wrong. or maybe i just feel guilty for not telling him =x*

dont give me that second of confused hope

he fixes her fav push toy without her even asking

2009-04-16T01:41:00.004+08:00

we played flying toys.
trying to aim each other in the face.
she laughed like mad till sister came in and ask what happened. lol.

can see something flying in the air? no..

...now.. she threw it against the ceiling!

just landed nicely inbetween her face and chest wahahaha

fast asleep. pig.

she must never know i did this =x
iwanttosleep!

unending, unwinnable argument

2009-04-15T08:36:00.004+08:00

why was he her version of the best?

lerelyn came looking for me last night at 12 plus am
i was asleep by then
sis calling hp to wake me up, knocking the shit out of doors.
till when i finally woke and found lerelyn to be standing outside my room door.
i was shocked
i thought i was seeing her in my dreams
guilt + sadness
go on crying girl
shit him.
im sorry im always the one asking her to get over him
it was never my intention to speak badly of him in front of her
cause it'll only make her dont wanna share her problems about him, with me in future.
and it also hurts our relationship.
damn.
which like many stuffs
she knew i hated it
but still confess after SOME TIME
sometimes the look of her face
after she confess
looked like my dog when she peed at the wrong corner on the floor and is afraid of getting exposed after that
=/
i hate it when she rake me up while talking to my ex, regarding the past.
i mean, come on its over
he deserve a choice
a better one
he dont need to hear over my stupid and tiresome name.
i mean, he dont have to!
why is she still hooking onto MY past?
i rather,
she DONT confess to me at all.
i'll love her as much.

sigh.

anyway i think shes finding an answer for herself
so most probly
i dont care
what she did
as long as
she
can get over
asap

2009-04-11T18:20:00.004+08:00

I had a hard time taking this pic!

went to city harvest ytd to watch the drama
8pm to 10pm plus.
damn it was freaking real.
ok la, i got a shock and i somehow got scared
butbutbut, i didnt cry =)
thank you haksoonnie lol, for inviting me there
cause i learn new stuffs
eg, finding mr right.
lol i side tracking.
and yes the Lord has given us more than what we need
has sacrificed,
given us choices
and i believe i wanna follow the right path!
i was complaining throughout,
damn hungry
didnt had breakfast, lunch and dinner =/
bused to central after that for supper
chicken riced, satayed, almond jellyed
ate alot siaaaa.
but haksoon ate more =/
walk back,
by the time it was freaking late
haksoon claims he would be a very SWEET boyf in future..
WHAT MAKES YOU THINK SO HUH????!
lol jkjk.
kk gtg!
stomach pain
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ON AN UPWARD TRAJECTORY

2009-04-10T00:10:00.010+08:00

Precious

went to john little sales with her
the stuff were all so cool
i mean
i wanted this i wanted that
and i will definitely go again haa

the antonyms of precious

this guy here
i wanna express how sorry am i
for not being able to go check up with you
and see how they check you up and everything
omg you told me in details.
SICK! yuck!
adding salt to your wounds,
i didnt even go to red hill to meet you
throwing aside our dinner and movie
eventually
i think there was an angel within me
i decided to dinner with you since your maid didnt cook
omg thank me man thank me man!
=D

oh ya, tamp 1 was really good.
aint kidding
feels like town
got that town feeling while exploring
love it love it love it!
topshop, dorothy perkins, UNIQLO!
much much more i forgot
ALL'S NICE AND GREAT!
whats more near to my house teehee!

all i need is another reason to feel inadequate

2009-04-08T00:08:00.002+08:00

BLURR-ED but LOVE-ED

gee gee gee gee baby baby baby

i wanna claw you

2009-04-05T23:45:00.008+08:00

i shake my head at the futility of resisting such a handsome man =/
_______________________________

a damn nice song.
sometimes i wish i could speak korean lol.

i dont want a boyf. i need a real man real man real manxzxzxzxzx...........

2009-04-05T01:23:00.005+08:00

wa liao she dance so gracefully with highhighhigh heels!!!

high heels and tight skirts?

2009-04-04T22:48:00.004+08:00

dont stroke me with your eyes.

_

new pictures uploaded
not in sequence

_

sob my inner clock isnt well

i love them manxzxzxzxzxxzx!

am i pmsing? no im not.

2009-04-03T00:33:00.006+08:00

mr. nice guy wont go past first base without permission

swimming swimming & swimming
i think this helps.

i needa go to the airport now :(
shit shit shit i wanna shit its coming out hehe

its too amorphous, too insidious.

2009-04-02T02:15:00.006+08:00

the rationalizations get me through the day

argh i just cabbed back from central.
lerelyns so cautious now
afraid i would be harmed -.-
even when i failed to answer/reply her calls/smses,
she never fails to conceptualize
i gave her 10 to pay for the cab fare before i alight
didnt realise she was frking energetic
pulled my shirt and snapped the elastic in my shorts to force the 10$ note into my ... before i could jump away.
the taxi uncle was smiling
i think he was amazed.
i slammed the door cuz i was embarrassed

& lerelyn,
i didnt mean to reject when you wanted me to do you that favour
i just dont wanna have anything to do with him.
not that i dislike or hate him
i just dont want to let it affect our friendship in future
hahaha dont be too touched
i know you will =D

argh argh argh

i argue. i debate. i acquiesce.

2009-03-31T22:53:00.006+08:00

Drunken stupidity!!!

if i try to reach out far, i might fall forward, off the cliff, and die of humiliation.

2009-03-29T23:35:00.005+08:00

but i'll grab it as i fall forward, then pull my feet up and swing high out before i let go and sink blissfully out of sight (:
___________________________________________

just reached home.
met up with lerelyn in CGH A&E department
saw blood blood and blood over and over again
man walking with blood dripping from his thumb
another man walking with his pants soaked with blood
omg i nearly faint~~~
shit i missed todays show
the dancing show

-

mum so kind and loving
lol
she msged me while im in the bus
"Done, Ive put in 50"
me: "Thank you mummy i love you wahahahahaha!"
mum: "I lv u too! Take care n cm back early :)"
prolly she knows i've nt enough to spend
anyway im spending wisely yes i am
i really hate to ask her for money
i mean,
i ask for needs, not wants
like out for dinner and stuff
not for clubbing, smoking or drinking
no, never.
i mean, i would rather ask dad for it =/
each time i ask
mum gave willingly
damn
and im still doing lots of things behind her back
clubbing, smoking, drinking, etc
she allows me to stay out late cause she's trusting me!
i dont want to break this trust
i mean, shes giving me the freedom now
ive quit smoking. 3 cheers
to be exact
i never once got addicted
drinking and clubbing
i'll cut down
i'll make sure.

-

im hope im healing fast
not deteriorating..

The Veronicas - Untouched (another catchy song argh!)

2009-03-29T17:26:00.012+08:00

MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

i walk away into the cooling night.

2009-03-28T18:12:00.009+08:00

i feel guilty for wanting more...

Yay
i've watched confessions of a shopaholic ytd!
guess what,
i saw st johns peeps
xueling and angela!
hahahhaa
really nice and i didnt know xuelings bday was today!
the show was nt bad
it was much better than bloody valentine and coming soon
those had stupid endings
but i guess the part 2s are coming soon!
lol
i think
and yesyesyes
i got the soundtrack =D
i went with this guy
ha ha he he ha ha ho ren an!
yes ho ren an
hohohohohoho
damn he was super unglam
and his skin is thicker than mine.

Childish.. playing with my food

act cute

he's thinking "why is this girl infront of me so cute?!"

while waiting for the grand theatre to open

show your ugly teeth man! oh and yes we were born in the same year, on the same date! thats why maybe we look similar.. or no i think i look much better! =D

i stayed home today. im so proud of myself

I cannot breathe, cannot get free. I am going to hell.

2009-03-26T20:58:00.002+08:00

KNEE HIM.

I think it was the night before yesterday
when i left the house with lerelyn cause there was a small crisis at home.
after suppering, we went our own way.
suddenly there was this guy following me.
i thought i was thinking too much at first.
called lerelyn to let her know.
hang up immediately cause i was afraid that fuck would snatch my handphone and run.
i begin testing him.
no doubt he was really following
my legs went soft like jelly.
he gripped onto my shoulder
i felt like shit.
the moment he tried to turn my whole body,
my hand went up,
slapping his face with the packet drink i was holding.
guava juice.
that was damn cooling and sweet.
he turned mad.
held my wrist and squeeze like fuck
i felt like my whole hand was going break
he twisted my whole hand i got no choice but to turn myself towards him
the moment i turn my knee went up so hard
he release and held onto his little brother so badly.
screamed and shouted so loud
but he still wasnt crawling,
i kicked his leg and he knelt like a pathetic fucker
that was the cooliest part.
"you little bitch" he said.
he spits the word onto my face.
"you little shit"
i ran away
fuck i fell
i guess it was because i was too afraid =x
i looked back while i pick myself up
he didnt laugh =/
instead he kept scolding me bitch
but he couldnt walk
i ran out of the block
a taxi honked
he wanted me to go into his cab
i dont know if he's doing this because he's afraid the guy would come after or he just wanna earn money -.-
i rejected, hurriedly head home
saw lerelyn's cab stopping before my house
she's afraid something bad would happen to me
but i guess everythings fine now =)))

yesterdays night,
went club at st james powerhouse
it was really fun
the dancefloor was high
the topstage were packed but i managed to get up
it was only fun after i glupped down the sprite vodka
you just wanna dance to the music
throwing everything aside
unable to stop
shit sorry lerelyn
i kissed unexpected people
amanda, jj, and lerelyn im sorry for that
then this stupid guy was in front of me
he plant his stupid lips FUCK FUCK FUCK
i feel so disgusted
thanks jj for taking care of us
esp when we were on the dancefloor
thanks thanks thanks
i want the pictures from you soon!!!!!
alright im getting giddy
shall say
i had fun =)
bye!

放了爱 - 郭美美

2009-03-24T16:21:00.012+08:00

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

2009-03-24T15:25:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling so bad after rushing and pushing myself through several sticks because of her her her!! this time it sucked really badly, it makes you feel like flying but you cant; feel like running but the moment you run, you'll fall; feel like puking but you cant; feel like screaming but somethings blocking the air way; feels damn high like you've just drink, feel like you cant even walk properly. You just feel like falling flat, waiting for someone to carry you home.

Im not blaming her, no im not, just trying to make her feel guilty!!!! READ READ READ MY BLOG.. AFTER READING LEMME KNOW K!

2009-03-08T02:29:00.002+08:00

Im not willing to see you intoxicate in deep nights again
Promise me you won't wander around in deep night again
& dont lightly attempt the taste of self-indulgence
Do you know, this will make my heart break

Live well (:

2009-03-07T23:01:00.003+08:00

shit i havent been visiting blogger for so long.
hopefully i could rmb what i've been doing for the past few days...

last tues which is 3rd mar i guess,
went out with 2 small sister to shop as promised.

got my slippers, jacket and some printed tees.
i gotta start spending wisely too :(
went to Gelare, used the 20 mummy gave me.
sushi time too!
its been ages..
head home to bathe.
met up with lerelyn at 1am.
yay mummy let me out though shes kinda reluctant since i will be staying out through the night.
but still, i want her to know that i've grown! =x
act only.
head towards pasir ris park,
meet up with eric, ms and 2 of their other friends.
i gotta admit,
i was kinda shocked to learn that eric was there.
we fished, crabed.
in between,
i scribbled on car windows,
cause of the vapour on it.
eric & lerelyn follow suit.
names on cars damn fantastic.
ate takeaway mac,
played and showed off my magical skills =P
haha like all of them know alr la,
laughed like a mad woman chasing lerelyn with 2 fishing rods,
till ms wanted to throw rotten fish at me,
eric wanted to dirty my face with his fishy smelly hands.
i feel damn high initially because i could like poke them from few metres back.
& cause eric felt irritated,
he wanted to stop me
but ended up stepping onto ms fishing rod.
WAHAHAHA
they thunder the crabs, broke them, torture them.
actually they're alr dead.

Crabs... turn your head to see sorry..

damn cool cause we found hermit crabs..

pack up,
took about 1 whole hour!
took bus with eric.
argueing where to stop.
i kept insisting,
till we went further down
had to walk from pasir ris crest back home
i thought the bus would stop at my house there
zzz
sis saw us,
dad was blur =P
reach home at 7am
thought mum would give me a lashing
she didnt
instead she asked how many fishes and hows everything.

4th mar went to gym with sis and lerelyn
sis cant go in she was too young argh!
head to tm then back home.
meet up with lerelyn later on for kboxing
sorry for being late la.
her boyf treated us buffet.
sang too many songs.
i think it was the most among all the other kbox outings
den went for night dessert and fetch me back home
wl, i feel like a small kid la
i reach home earlier this time.
12.30am =D

5th mar,
met lerelyn again.

keep seeing her face lor
she want me accompany her go support her boyf.
so went to watch the bball match at a school.
it was a girls match.
damn rough
damn act
the girls were like pushing, snatching the ball so hard.
den some would act as if they fell so that they could get free throws.
argh cch lost!
after that follow her go bai her ahma.
see her cry cry cry,
went to suite room
damn classy
REACH HOME AT 8 PLUS K!

Next day which is ytd,
went for badminton.
oh yea yippie yippie yea yeah!
was late again.
lerelyn rushing over to my house to wake me up since hp couldnt do the job
while she's halfway here, i woke =D
meet her boyf at the tamp sports stadium
he waited for an hour plus =/
another buffet after badmintoning
i think i've gained weight =x
went home to bathe,
overnight at her house for mj.

The night she broke up with him,
The night i decided to shed no more.

lerelyn cheer up!
she dont want let me lie beside her.
scare her mum thought we les.
wth!
next morning woke up at 10 plus.
dad called woke me.
went home today at 12?
i stayed home today!!!!!!!!

some pics not up.
like kbox and fishing.
will get them soon.

2009-03-02T22:52:00.005+08:00

i think blogging is really a waste of time.
but since i got loads of time now,
i shall. =D

27 Feb.
went to gym, followed by swimming.
then to tm shop shop!

In the bus!

I think i got caught looking at hunks. lol jkjk.

went to toy rus!

28 Feb.
Ps kel for sha. =D
YES!
Sha miss me too much.

asked me out to accompany her look for ipod classic.
she got BLUE!
HAHAHAHAHA MUCH NICER THEN MY PINKY ONE!
shit man,
i never once regretted my choice.
but now i have to confess that i really regret getting that ipod for $368 when now they're worth so much cheaper!
went to bugis to shop around.
i was freaking amazed.
shas willing to let me buy bikini.
haha wth..
i thought she would go against or what,
after that time i told her i wanna buy something and she was freaking against it.
nvm.
tried it,
i nearly got a heart attack!
i mean, which idiot will open the curtain while the customer is still inside changing?!
SHE helped me to wear the bikini!
damn automatic.
lerelyn came meet us for dinner after that.
after which we shop around far east plaza.
SHEER ROMANCE having offer.
KOOL KOOL! =D
reach home around 1am +.
SHIT!

1 mar.
went swimming with mum and rad.
damn !@#$%^$! la
at first i didnt want to swim cause of the weather.
damn cold!
sis kept wanting to push me in the swimming pool.
after much consideration, i decided to swim.
cause after all rad wants me to play with her in the pool badly.
bloody idiot.
i only swim for like 15 mins before it start to rain heavily.
then bathed and went home -.-!!
after that met sha to help her with her ipod thingy.
lerelyn came after that.
spent some time in downtown mac.
then head home.
1am again.
SHIT!
i hope i can change this.

Random shots while waiting for bus lol!

Done =D

2009-02-27T15:00:00.004+08:00

TEEHEE!
dad said i lost weight
wahahhaha
though i know i cant take his words for real.
im going to take my height and weight later again...
and im heading to the gym now,
then swimming.
;D

tata!

2009-02-26T01:08:00.009+08:00

last sun, went out in the night to play arcade.
i know its a damn shit kindda thing.
cause not only it makes you pay,
it also gets you high a little while,
and make you addicted to it.
but since JSer asked me,
and im like super lazing around at home,
i went ;D
and i think kel seems to be stalking me..
cause he seems to know when im out!
lol jkjk!

oh yea,
i must super get the info in my brain.
NEXT MON'S BADMINTON SESSION!
i cant wait la,
and i just remembered.
i hope the twins wont fickle again...
roars!

Mon, 23 Feb.
Bballed with JSer.
quite fun la.
cause i seem to be winning the match..
but eventually LOST afterall...!
Met lerelyn at geylang to eat dinner cum supper.
yes we ate frogs with rice.
damn ..... heavenly!
eric seems to know the place geylang damn well.
lol!
cause of his training blah blah...

Tues, 24 Feb.
Met kel at tm.
ate yoshinoya.
needed his help in sth.
but seemingly, he reluctant to help.
still, he snatch my book and pen..
no la, i do that forcefully.
=D
watched He's Just Not That Into You.
the whole movie really describe kel so well.
went to feed fish later.

He first time see fish!

Look like.... some pathetic loner HAHA My mums road!

kel brought me to Gelare.
i know i freaking fantastic and dull.
but this is my first time going there -.-
and first time did i see such big and thick waffle!
yea it was nice!
walked, talked, piggybacked, homed!
met lerelyn at pasir ris mrt.
she wanted to stay over at my house.
chat, watch tv till next morning la.
i super tired.
slept like a log at 5 plus am.
she said i kicked her while sleeping..!
how could it be?!
and she didnt dare to face me..
scare i give her a blow of my foots to her other parts... -.-

Wed, 26 Feb.
i was awaken by lerelyn.
by her blatant handphone keypads.
or my tympanic membrane that good?!
& bcause i wanted more time to sleep,
i throw her towel and everything,
ask her bathe first =D
& she DID! HAHAHHAHA!
went for our breakfast later on.
she kept complaining argh!
she peevishly added,
"bathe... SLOW!, change... SLOW!, eat... also SLOW!"
& she laughed uncontrollably.
after that bused to tm meet kel take stuff.
see la rochell, pass more thing over to him la!
afterwhich, lerelyn cont her journey to workplace.
met JSer at tanah merah,
idiotic him waste my fare.
lol jkjk!

went to look for SATA clinic.
walk like never ending but finally found it!
waiting time so long,
checking time so long,
everythings damn long!
registration, key in wrong data.
funny lady, trying to murder me.
want me to go for 2 jab.
make my face as white as sheet.
one word also dont dare utter.
went for x ray.
naked with super long gown,
i dont know how to wear.
in the end i went out.
ask some girls to help me with it.
funny thing is that,
not only i dont know!
HAHA THEY ALL DONT KNOW TOO!
so we anyhow tie here and there.
look like dumpling!
injection, i scream and shout, shows that pathetic "i-cant-take-it" look.
wa liao, i ALONE in the docs room leh.
he then assure me and ask me to clench something tightly.
i held super tightly k!
then because i didnt wanna go for another jab,
i asked the nurse.
she said "oh! i think they key in wrongly!"
stupid... make me so scare like shit.
i was like wahhh! Thank God!
asked for refund!
see doc and left the clinic =D
sorry JSer for making you wait damn long.
but seriously, i dont feel sorry at all HAHA.
walked like ages, finding his favourite coffeeshop.
then i found out, its cheap and super nice.
especially this tangyuan thingy.
he intro-ed.
i know la, i dumb!
cause im not a fussy food lover =D
bused back, slept.
cause i felt damn weak.
maybe cause of the injection, my whole arm felt weak..
yea and it was a super nice day to sleep la.
cause it was raining.
though i got drench a little walking back -.-

wa liao,
i really hate blogging like this.
so many days one shot.
but really damn busy.
LOL!
act only.
=P
TATA!

Faith, a small word, with a huge meaning to it.

2009-02-21T22:31:00.002+08:00

went out with lerelyn ytd.
ate at ws foodcourt,
the ambiance wasnt there,
went arcade,
saw jerome ser, cihui and yong an.
like oh my...
followed by ice creaming,
damn fattening!
but i twist the top off like never ending.
damn thrilling cause i thought of his.
nah just kidding!
ser came after that,
after which he bounce bball back home.
he bloody gay! jkjk.
went to the park for awhile,
met sha after that.
chat like damn long.
yeah, i know i didnt regret after all that i've heard from the past few days.
and yes, i should stop feeling bad!!!!!
chat till like 1 plus,
played the "sneak-into-her-house-to-pee" game.
walked home alone.
so damn pathetic.
peed a lil on my pants,
damn it! super cant control la.
ser was still nagging, ask me hide in bush and pee.
wth..
i walked so fast like some mad woman rushing to commit suicide.
reached,
ran to toilet,
nearly fall before i could plant my ass on the seat.
bathed,
on phone till morning cause i seriously cant get to sleep. :(

today i dam super goodddddddddd,
didnt go out.
lol actually can say,
no one asked me out.
hahhahahaha but nvm,
i enjoy today,
cause i eat super lil,
like no link.
but im on a freaking diet.
hope i did lose some weight.

oh ya,
talked to mummy,

i wanna go old school.
she dont wanna let me join dancing!!!!
wthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

say its not decent.

argh!
i wanna learn this!!

MTV Groove!

nights ppl!

2009-02-19T21:39:00.004+08:00

14 feb, which is v's day...
went out with mummy to office,
met lerelyn later,
walked few rounds cause she couldnt decide what to eat.
in the end,
all shops were closed.
can imagine, we walked for few hours..
ate at some jap restaurant which was freaking ex!

after that we mrted to clarke quay,
and walked all the way to double O to meet her friend, meng soon.
i sneaked in the club as a 21 yr old woman.
frantically trying to rmb "my" birthday, full name and everything.
*cause thats someone else ic la*
the thing was that,
i was wearing slippers that day ;D
i think God so dont want me to go club laa.
the woman said i couldnt go in with slippers.
but still, i got in la..
with the help of ming soon and his friends hahhaa!
who are... eric, zhou jun and shaun.
yes i did enjoy my first clubbing experience but i DO NOT want to go again cause i'm afraid i will start to dance like a mad woman.
but yea i had fun...
some ape was pulling me here and there,
escorting me here and there too.

They were trying to disturb....

...we poke them back!

15 Feb...
Met lerelyn for dinner at bugis.
went to eat steamboat.
not bad quite nice..
and she was missing someone so badly... :(

16 Feb...

i brought her to marina barrage..
its really a freaking nice place.
thanks la kelvin for introducing..

The sun was freaking hot, we were having our kfc lunch..

Soon... when the sun decides to hide, we explored around..

We were compel by fascination because of the sceneries till we didnt notice that there was mud pool in front of us.. we felt as if we're floating for few seconds..

Look damn cooling and nice right...

we walked through it..
I have no idea why my arm so.... disfigured? But it was damn cooling..

I saw this little girl playing in the water.. I felt like joining her... BUT NO EXTRA CLOTHES!!
I was taking pictures and this stupid thing shoot up right in front of me! But this is the best shot so far. HAHA! The colour changes from time to time and its a damn romantic place cause its freaking cooling and dark. But never go twice, its boring...

17 feb...
swimming with lerelyn and slacking out with eric after that..

I dont wear bikini cause im fat and ugly...!

I damn tall if you guys dont know...

sweet la my hair... im suppose to show that im taller..

she climb to act tall but still shorter xD

18 feb...

went out with kel to have dinner..

he so dont wanna study..

i got no choice.

had dinner at tm..

went to marina barrage once again..

he ps dont have the thing he wanted to show me.

i damn angry.

pushed him into the waterfall..

he sibei buay song.

pull me but didnt manage to wet me.

damn weak!

bused, mrted, bused.

REACH HOME YAYNESS! (:

kelvin, pls take off that pretty pic in your blog can?

thank you!

wah finally..

BYE!

Head for the comfort of your comfort...

2009-02-19T01:54:00.009+08:00

And for some strangest reason, I feel so sad.
And because I think the reason is so incredibly stupid, I'm going to blame it on hormones going wonky.

I'll just need to stop the tears from flowing as i'm posting this,
and I'll be having a different view of you.

Clubbing,
steamboat,
exploring marina barrage with lerelyn and kelvin,
swimming,
slacking.

I'll upload pictures real soon..

2009-02-18T02:03:00.002+08:00

we've broken up...
a guy that i'll never be able to forget.
someone who showered me with love and care.
someone who has never failed to be there in times of good and bad.
someone who truly loved me for who i am...

i'm really sorry...

13 Feb 2009

2009-02-14T01:33:00.003+08:00

Slept like a log,
woke up at 2 plus.
Then met Kelvin at Safra with his bunch of friends.
Left them and head towards cineleisure.
He power, took a damn slow bus there.
Crap all the way and suddenly he realised my lil finger damn cute wahaha!
Reached there, ate at xin wang hk restaurant.

Thanks la kelvin!

Guess how dissatisfied he was..
Pass me the flower wrapped in adidas bag!

"Nah! This one for you.." But sweet la! haha

He wanna have the whole ice cream to himself... PIG!

Oh yea, the whole dessert was REALLY BIG! We didnt expect it..

Mango, superb laaaa!

My head damn cute right.. Fits in perfectly.. He wanna copy.. He was laughing real hard when he took this picture. Damn GAY! ;D And we took quite a number, only realised we could dig a hole in the middle after he ate his side and i ate my side. Lol try to get what i mean haha. I wanted to dig more higher up but it was SHAKING!

See wanna copy haha. His head super big.. Cant fit! =P

We were on the way to marina bay. To explore some stuff. He wanna act tall la.. almost same height as me.. He tiptoeing ;P

We were waiting for bus 10.

Act macho.. He claims he has abs. Haha. I also have.. only dont want let him feel.

Yes thats all for today! or maybe, it was ytd to be exact. So long never go out with him laa. He never change one bit, still as flirt! haha.

K la, damn late.. wanna sleep.. Nights!

2009-02-11T22:19:00.000+08:00

knowing that you'll be hurt in the end
then why do you still love.
cause you know that
letting go is hard to do
but it seems like the only way
so what would you do.
stay with how it's been
or let go and start afresh.
part of you wants to hold onto him
yet another part of you
keeps telling you to let go.
people tell you to let go
but you refuse to
cause you think
there's still hope
there's still a possibility that
one day
just maybe one day..
...
but what are the chances.

its funny sometimes how i contradict people. we can choose to be selfish and hold on real tight. or we can just let go, then no one gets hurt. but many don't want to let go, all because of selfishness.

The gift of love.

2008-08-19T17:36:00.000+08:00

The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. Then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg.

It had been a year since Susan, 34, became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. And all she had to cling to was her husband, Mark.

Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again.

Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city. At first, this comforted Susan, and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task.

Soon, however, Mark realized the arrangement wasn't working. Susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But she was still so fragile, so angry - how would she react? Just as he predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again.

"I'm blind!", she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I am going? I feel like you're abandoning me."

Mark's heart broke to hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took, until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all, accompanied Susan to and from work each day.

He taught her how to rely on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat.

Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus-riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, And his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday... Each day on her own went perfectly, and Susan had never felt better. She was doing it! She was going to work all by herself.

On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying the fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure do envy you." Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? Curious, she asked the driver, "Why do you say that you envy me?"

The driver responded, "It must feel good to be taken care of and protected like you are." Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, and again asked, "What do you mean?"

The driver answered, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine-looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you as you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches until you enter your office building.

Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady." Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't physically see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was lucky, so lucky, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light where there is darkness.